Monday, July 31, 2006

My motivation...

Well, just when I thought it was okay to relax…

I got this thought today about excuses, after watching a ball player was announced as being out of the lineup due to a hang nail. Now, I’m not going to debate whether or not he can still throw a baseball, but it got be thinking about common excuses about why we don’t pursue our dreams, or those things we’ve committed ourselves to.

This list usually include reason like:

1. sleeping in

2. staying out late

3. too hot

4. too much to do

5. summer is only time off

and so on and so on....

I started thinking if I ever want to be known for those excuses when my days training are over. Or do I want to known as a player who got all they could out of all they had?

This is just one Ironman, but it’s important to bring to it my best hand (given recent events that is an interesting play on words). This is what is driving my search for alternatives as I rehab my left hand. Who knows what I will end up with, but I won’t know unless I know that I have done everything I can do, training-wise to prepare for race day and arrive at the starting line in the best condition possible… That ALSO means taking care of the cast and injury and making sure I don’t jeopardize my recovery with foolhardy mistakes.

Food for thought…

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Eating crow...

Floyd Landis has now allegedly tested positive for drugs after winning the Tour de France... I'll say all of this is alleged so I don't want to cast accusations, but I did feel it warranted my own little take.

I was cheering for Landis this year... Good, humble, understated guy who just seemed to work hard and was dealing with hip arthritis. Hard not to cheer for him. Add to that his Mennonite background and I felt like I was cheering for one of my own (like Cindy Klassen).

So, if it is all true, then I'm disappointed. Not shattered or disillusioned, because I know the likelihood of cyclists in the Tour doing some type of performance-enhancement is pretty high... Just disappointed because you want to believe that someone has accomplished this great feet and comeback legitimately. I still do.

But if it is all true, then Landis should be held as an example, and scrutinized and punished for his actions. I would want people, competitors and all of us in general, to see that you can't cut corners. That the short term gain will cost you more long term. The consequences need to be deep.

I wish Landis no ill will, mind you. I hope he comes through this okay and moves on, but his legacy is definitely tainted (again, if all of this is true). Hero's are hero's because they accomplish amazing things but also because of the integrity and honesty in which they achieve those amazing feets. I don't care about winning and losing, I care about the spirit and enthusiasm that someone brings to their passion. It's probably why I am inspired by people in my marathon clinic, who work hard to finish the race, leaving everything that they have out on the course. None of us ever win anything except an occasional age group title, but I am not impressed by that in so much as how that person is in their attitude, their passion for the sport, their treatment of others, and their desire to give back.

So, that's why Landis' recent test results are disappointing, more than anything. I liked his attitude, approach, guts and motivations... All that now seems a little blemished now.

Off to Edmonton for training camp... Earn your place at the starting line, that's all I have to say. Be true to the sport!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Success!!!

I changed a flat...

I know, by now I should know how to change a flat... but today it was made special by the fact that I did it with only one hand. For my next trick..........

Yes even the little things impress me right now.

But, in all seriousness, you have to be able to change your own tire, and I have been scared of riding by myself with my cast on because of this. Now, I'm not so scared, although it takes me about 20 minutes to get it done and it is not easy holding the bike and taking off wheels and the like with one hand.

All positives aside, my shoulder has been hurting all day today. I think the weight of the cast and having to keep it upright all the time is starting to get a little aggravating, and it's taking its toll on my left shoulder. I have to make some decisions about this, as I worry the running might be part of the problem.

Tomorrow I am off to Edmonton for the Lisa Bentley camp. I am excited to meet her and be able to ask questions, as well as to train with the team for a weekend. I truly have to say that one highlight of the year has been joining this Ironcops team. There are some great folks here and I hope to be involved again when they do this for the 2008 Ironman. Being part of something that makes a worthwhile contribution to cancer research has made the experience quit special. I haven't raised all the moneyI would like to yet, so hopefully I can round up another thousand dollars or so before the race itself. But even just being able to participate and be part of something big like this has been special enough.

It is one more solid week of training and then we begin to taper! I think I will be able to relax a little more at that point because I have been nervous about my training, admittedly, since the broken hand and just knowing I am SUPPOSED to reduce my training is somewhat comforting. Still, I have a big 180k ride on Saturday and a long 2-3 hour run on Sunday. That's not exactly taking things easy!

And I'm getting into this 10pm sleep time a little more... Ah the discipline of recovery!

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

And lest I forget...

I am still training hard... and furiously, actually. I put in a very difficult core and strength workout this morning that has left all my upper body limp with muscle exhaustion. I am going to wear a heart rate monitor next time on this stuff, but the ball workouts and Bowflex exercises were merciless (thanks to Paul Hatano, trainer to the future NHL stars). Doing this 4 times/week is beginning to really make me miss the 5:30am masters swimming I gave up last year!

My 2 hour ride on Saturday on the trainer had my heart rate at 155 average, with a few bursts as high as 185. And my long slow run on Sunday was 23.3km in 2:20, with an average HR of 143. Nice and steady...

And here I was worried I'd be out of shape soon...

The Hoyts... and the many like them.

Have you ever heard the story of the Hoyts? They are a father and son who do Ironman together. The son is pushed and pulled by his father through the entire race.

For the past twenty five years or more Dick, who is 65, has pushed and pulled his son across the country and over hundreds of finish lines. When Dick runs, Rick is in a wheelchair that Dick is pushing. When Dick cycles, Rick is in the seat-pod from his wheelchair, attached to the front of the bike. When Dick swims, Rick is in a small but heavy, firmly stabilized boat being pulled by Dick.

At Rick’s birth in 1962 the umbilical cord coiled around his neck and cut off oxygen to his brain. Dick and his wife, Judy, were told that there would be no hope for their child’s development.

"It’s been a story of exclusion ever since he was born," Dick says. "When he was eight months old the doctors told us we should just put him away — he’d be a vegetable all his life, that sort of thing. Well those doctors are not alive any more, but I would like them to be able to see Rick now."

Watching the footage from the 1997 Ironman in Hawaii, and watching this father-son team, I knew I had to be a part of an event like this. It is truly one of the most inspirational stories I have ever seen, and it truly champions the power of the human being. For those of us doing Ironman this year, keep the Hoyts, and the Blazeman (who completed Ironman last year while afflicted with Lou Gehrig's Disease), and all those overcoming great adversity in mind. They show us all the value and stength of human courage and spirit.

My good friend Vince is on his last days of a 45-day treatment for skin cancer on his face. To look at him, it is hard to argue that the cure seems a heck of a lot worse that the cause. But Vince, and it should come as no surprise, is a fighter. And he has jumped through whatever was necessary to achieve his goals. He dropped 20+ pounds and trained relentlessly to qualify for the Boston marathon, and his struggle there was just a precursor to what he has done to battle this disease. I say this because today is his last day of treatment, and he's battered and bruised from it all. It has taken it's toll, and I've seen it in that he's not his boisterous self, his usual free-spirited sometimes-know-it-all self... It's sad, but it also shows that he's human, and battling for his life is a true example that life is the fight.

And the poetry in all of this is not to take away from our own accomplishments (me with nothing but a broken thumb to worry about), but to recognize that the power of events like the Ironman is to bring out the very essence of us all. The Ironman has value in our society. Even more value than we realize to help shape and change the world.

The Ironman is open to all people who are willing to commit themselves, regardless of whether we were born gifted, or "male" (given that in many sports the female athlete gets less respect), or able-bodied, or have survived cancer, or are still fighting a deadly disease. Simply because we are here, we can do this. And, with that, we show that we are all capable of amazing achievement and, while we may not make $25 million a year playing our sport or be watched by billions and have our face on a cereal box, this cannot diminish or devalue our effort, commitment and achievement. It is a completely open race, allowing anybody to take the risk and say "I can", to dream, to realize a dream and work hard towards it.

When I went to Ironman in 2001 to sign up, I was sitting in the now-Starbucks-but-then Boar's Head Tavern, watching the finishers come in at night, when a lady who had an art gallery on the upper floor of this building came up to my table and offered my brother, my friend and I free entry to the gallery. We politely declined, saying we wanted to stay outside and watch the Ironman athletes. She snuffed and said "I can't believe you actually want to watch all these EGO's..." I told her "I'm not watching 'ego's', I'm watching people, one by one, do something I've dreamed of doing but haven't done... yet". She said "it's just so egocentric it's disgusting."

I won't discuss my thoughts on her at the time, other than thinking it ironic that she was talking about being disgusted by egocentricity when she was, in my humble opinion, begging us to come look at HER art... But egotism is, by my definition, worrying about how others view you. In a race, it's judging yourself by how others did in relation to you. When the battle is your own, when the struggle is you vs. the conditions of the race (including a fear of swimming, a blown knee, a sweltering heat, an illness, a broken thumb, cancer, skin cancer, and so on) then it's not ego at work... It's living.

Click on the URL below to see amazing video footage of the entire process for the Hoyts. Watching the Ironman Hawaii footage from 1997 appreciate the sport that much more:

http://tinyurl.com/h9fzq

Sunday, July 23, 2006

120 minutes of suffering...


I think the title says it all... Yesterday I painstakingly threw the Cervelo on the trainer and began a 2 hour Spinervals DVD that can best be described as merciliess... I'll take a 5 hour ride in the sun over this pounding anyday...
It didn't help that I was at my cousin's wedding in Maple Ridge until 2am Friday night, arriving home just in time to grab 2 hours of shut-eye so that I could get up and watch Stage 20 of the Tour De France... I deduced that, given I was riding indoors anyway and "only" for two hours, I could risk sleeping after. That is all well and good except that the temperature by early afternoon, when I started my spin session, was about 35 degrees and barely any cooler indoors.
But who am I to complain? It was a great little session and, aside from staying in my aerobars the entire time (because I can't put weight on my left hand), I felt very strong at the end.

I am going to have to write a short essay, when all is said and done, about how to train for Ironman with a broken hand, because I really do think I'm beginning to figure this stuff out. I sat down with Paul today and went through the weight workout I'll be doing. A lot of it involves using a physio ball and a lot of balancing. In addition to that workout, I have felt great on all of my runs to date, including a 23k distance run this morning. I have learned that, as long as I keep my thumb above my elbow, I don't get any throbbing pain throughout the run. It must also be doing wonders for my shoulder too.

This following week I will be heading to Edmonton for the Lisa Bentley training camp, put on by the Ironcops team. I'm hoping she can give me some added tips and suggestions for the last 4 weeks of preparation. I can't believe it is 35 days until Ironman...

Friday, July 21, 2006

Solutions refined...

My buddy Paul, a personal trainer who works with a rehabilitation/fitness clinic in Burnaby, has come up with a dryland training program for me to use for the next three weeks to not only keep my fitness up, but also improve my strength and core stability. This all so that, when I return to swimming, I am working on getting the mechanics back, but not the muscle endurance or strength.
He has also lent me one of his Spinervals CD’s which is called “120 minutes of Suffering”, for me to use on my trainer while I ride that stationary bike to its limits. He and I both agree that I have the base fitness to manage the Ironman, but that some good solid interval and fine tuning would do me wonders. I’m looking at an intensive 2 week cycle here, which will take me to 3 weeks before Ironman. I’ll have another one week peak period, and then begin to taper down as my cast comes off.
So all is going according to plan… Okay, maybe not so much, but I just finished reading the story of Clif Bar, which is a great business book about arriving at your business objectives by taking the roads less traveled. Sometimes you don’t get to choose to take the road less traveled, as it is necessitated out of a Detour sign due to road construction, or an accident… But, in the end, you get where you wanted to go, and you see some things you may never have seen had you taken the main road… I wonder if this is a sign that I should find a backroad up to Penticton instead of the Coquihalla or Crowsnest Highway?

“God made the desert so that man could find his soul…”

I don’t know where I found this quote, but somehow I like the way it sounds today.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Just when you thought he was down and out...

This morning I awoke and, for the first time all week, my hand was not hurting. I needed the Tylenol 3's last night to get to bed, and had been worried because they were not having the greatest positive impact on my energy levels. On Tuesday night I even had to take two of them just to fall asleep, and that played havoc with my mind as I woke up around 3am feeling panicked and a little scared that I had overdosed and might be in serious trouble. Of course that was not the case as taking two T-3's wouldn't have that much an effect, but considering my lack of "pain killer" experience (save for a shot of JD after a painful break-up), the drugs had me paranoid...
All this for a thumb...
But, I awoke this morning without even the need for an alarm and felt incredibly energetic. I turned on the Tour de France to see what was going on and, lo and behold, Floyd Landis was 7 minutes up on the rest of the group. This after being left for dead yesterday and all but being eliminated from contention on the race for the yellow jersey. I watched the determination in his face as he climbed away from the entire field in what would later be described as one of hte greatest individual performances in a bike race in Tour history. I know what he was thinking. He had put yesterday away from him, and was looking moment to moment, focused, and putting his absolute best performance into each pedal stroke. There was no field of racers, just Landis and his own race. He smashed the rest and hit the finish of this stage with absolute conviction and confidence. Even if he does not win the Tour, his was one of the most inspiring athletic performances I have witnessed.
Even more so, though, was his approach. He had a bad race yesterday and could have been feeling sorry for himself and relenting to just trying to stay respectable. Today was a new day, though. Where does that mental ability come from? I looked at how I reacted after my Victoria race (or lack thereof). I resigned myself at the moment I gave up my race. But at that moment I realized that, moving forward, I had two choices... To feel wronged by fate, or to refocus and start the next stage of my training with an absoluteness and purpose of action that would be unquestionable. I didn't want to regret another moment, to miss another opportunity, and I spent the next three weeks training harder and stronger than before. But, more importantly, I just kept focusing forward. What do I do today? What do I eat today? What's the workout plan or recovery plan?
Even now, after this broken thumb, I've taken a couple of days and taken inventory of the situation. I have 38 days until the race. I have 28 days or less until my cast comes off. I have to find new ways to train and arrive at August 27th ready to go. Because August 27th will arrive for me soon enough... It's how I get there that matters now. Which means taking each day day by day and determining the best course of action.
Personally, I enjoy, and am looking forward to, the challenge.
And now that the pain killers are unnecessary, I can get to work.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

What inspires me...

When I watch someone who has taken to running like a fish to water… That person who decided one day to give it a shot, and found a new passion that drives them to want to continue to run, and runs for the pure joy of it… That inspires me…

Passion is inspiring. Passion in others can be an epidemic. It is infectious to hang around a group of runners or triathletes after they finish a race, or a long workout. The ones who smile, happy with their effort and accomplishment, but also equally interested in sharing someone else’s experience and seeing their joy, are inspiring.

Watching a child finish their first triathlon and proudly wear their medal around their neck like they’ve just been initiated into adulthood… That is inspiring.

Watching a mom or a dad pick up their child as they approach the finish line… Very inspiring.

Seeing people overcome challenges inspires me. Whether it be illness, physical challenge, adversity, or whatever… Watching someone battle through with a positive attitude and a willingness to do what is necessary to achieve a goal. That is inspiring.

Watching a person who has struggled with weight loss or an image that they’ve carried their whole life that said “you’re not athletic” complete a marathon is worth more than any 1st place finish I could ever aim for.

It’s not a finishing time, or a bike split, or a fast marathon… It’s what you bring to the race that is inspiring. It’s your attitude, your power of self, dedication, determination, and the desire to do your best that makes you a star in my books. It's how you treat your fellow competitors, your supporters, the volunteers, your kids, and those around you that inspires me to want to be better all the same. It's how you treat the environment you race in - do you throw your garbage and water bottles away properly or toss them in the middle of no where for someone else to pick up someday (or not at all)? Do you feel the race is there to serve you, or are you there to contribute to the race, the community the race is in, the other competitors? If it's the latter, you're a great inspiration to me.

Volunteers inspire me...

I’m inspired by sportsmanship and genuine camaraderie, exhibited in many of those triathletes I know. Many of my triathlete and running friends see this as a community that supports each other, rather than a “winner-take-all there’s only so many accolades to be dished out” view. We’re here FOR each other, because without each other, there is no point in racing in the first place. It’s too lonely.

Triathletes and supporters who cheer each other on, bring their families to the race, congratulate each other and stick around until the last finisher crosses that line, they are the reason I keep trying and keep training. I would not be in this sport if it were different. If it was all about ME-ME-ME, I’d have quit after trying the first one. But I met people who showed me that this sport transcends age group placings and beating each other. There is healthy competition, for sure, but it’s healthy because both athletes push each other to succeed, then share a beer after and have genuine excitement about the other's accomplishment. I wouldn’t have pushed so hard during the Osoyoos race were it not for Michael, and afterwords it was just great to be able to share his great race with him. Knowing he’d bested me by 4-5 minutes, I was more happy that because he was there, I pushed myself to do my best.

15 years ago I said I wanted to do an Ironman before I turned 35. I will have done 2 before I turn 33, and 12 marathons (my goal was 1). The reason I have stuck with it is because of the people associated with the sport. Seeing someone finish their first marathon, or break the 4 hour mark for the first time, or finish a triathlon after learning how to swim, creates a spirit of accomplishment and human potential that is hard to stay away from. So I’ll keep competing, as long as the inspirations I mentioned keep showing up wherever I go. Thank you to all of you for being my inspiration.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Motivational thoughts...

Well, just when I thought it was okay to relax…

I got this thought today about excuses, after watching a ball player was announced as being out of the lineup due to a hang nail. Now, I’m not going to debate whether or not he can still throw a baseball, but it got be thinking about common excuses about why we don’t pursue our dreams, or those things we’ve committed ourselves to.

This list usually include reason like:

1. sleeping in
2. staying out late
3. too hot
4. too much to do
5. summer is only time off

and so on and so on....

I started thinking if I ever want to be known for those excuses when my days training are over. Or do I want to known as a player who got all they could out of all they had?

This is just one Ironman, but it’s important to bring to it my best hand (given recent events that is an interesting play on words). This is what is driving my search for alternatives as I rehab my left hand. Who knows what I will end up with, but I won’t know unless I know that I have done everything I can do, training-wise to prepare for race day and arrive at the starting line in the best condition possible… That ALSO means taking care of the cast and injury and making sure I don’t jeopardize my recovery with foolhardy mistakes.

Food for thought…

Post op...

The surgery went fine, and I'm laid up at home for the day just trying to recover. Actually, all in all I feel quite fine except that the thumb is in quite a bit of pain, so I have relented and started taking the Tylenol-3's... That definitely knocks me out a bit. I may be out of training at least for today and maybe tomorrow. I do have the luxury of knowing that I have been training pretty hard lately so I am a little more patient at this moment... We'll see how long that lasts.
I did manage to get a trip to Penticton in this weekend, and I rode the entire Ironman Canada course, all 180km of it, in about 6 hours. Given a cast on my left hand and that I raced the week before I was quite satisfied. I figured out how to change gears with my right hand on both shifters, which requires some thinking ahead and balance, but I have gotten used to it now.
I rode with the Ironcops team and we had two support vehicles the whole way. It was actually quite luxurious! I have never done a fully supported ride before. We had ice, water, Gatorade and pretzels at many different checkpoints.

The cast is scheduled to come off on August 17th, if all goes well. I can't determine yet if I'll still have something on my thumb or not, but hopefully that will put me in the clear for the race.

In the meantime I have got the therabands and I'm spending 10-20 minutes a day simulating my swimming, and I am mounting my bike on the trainer for the week. I can stay focused more on the shorter rides if I stay on the stationary. The next long ride will be a little different, and I anticipate doing that on the trainer too. I can see doing 4x1 hour intervals or something along those lines. Again, more focused effort might lead to a stronger bike performance anyway. Sometimes there are blessings in disguise in all this.

Time to relax! I'm typing this with one hand so it is a little more challenging. On a side note, the cast is quite heavy so, in some respects, I am giving my shoulders a workout every time I lift it!

Sunday, July 16, 2006

There's no middle ground...

I feel these days like there are so many little signals that re-enforce my own beliefs and feelings about my quest. I am watching the Tour de France on OLN right now and listening to Floyd Landis’ story. He held the yellow jersey as the overall leader for two days and has since given it up. Landis is scheduled for hip replacement surgery after this tour, as his hip has completely deteriorated. His motivation and drive for this tour is based on a massive reality that this could, and very well might be, his last one. No person has ever come back from hip surgery to compete legitimately at this level…

Then again, they said the same thing about Lance Armstrong and cancer, and we all know how that turned out.

I am going in for surgery tomorrow on my thumb. I have been told to expect to wear a cast for four weeks, which cuts things pretty close to Ironman. It doesn’t seem, though, like this is a “what if?” or “we’ll see how things go” situation when it comes to my race. It’s more black and white. I have not questioned my participation since I made the 100% commitment to make this race happen, and not even since I found out about my thumb. I’ve done my research on the fracture, and I have determined that I can come and compete, and I will compete as hard as I can. I don’t look at this as an excuse for stopping, and either this is a testimonial to my determination or just my commitment to this particular goal. I can’t decide, but I know that I have an unwavering commitment to making this happen no matter what it takes.

It’s weird, because it seems so logical and yet from talking with people some can’t believe I’m still going to try. But I can’t see not trying. A broken thumb, albeit one requiring surgery, is just a broken thumb. People have come back from shoulder dislocations, broken ankles, and far worse ailments to complete and compete in Ironman. So, while unfortunate and certainly inconvenient, I see no reason not to train as hard as possible and continue to move forward in my quest. In fact, I see some definite benefits already:

1) I’ll be getting some of these Thera-Bands to practice my swim stroke indoors, until I figure out if I can actually swim in a pool. This, I believe, could actually wind up being better for me, since I’ll be more focused on stroke skill and range of motion than if I were casually swimming in the pool or lake. Don’t get me wrong, I wish I were in the lake… But I might just get better focus over 4 weeks swimming on a bench.

2) I rode the course in Penticton yesterday. All 180km of it, and I rode it in 6 hours. I learned to change my big ring gear with my right hand instead of my left, and I learned that riding aero feels a lot better when you have a broken thumb. So I was forced to ride aero most of the way, which is tough to do. I also was forced to put less weight down on my handle bars by not using my wrists and hands to support me. This engages the core muscles a lot more which will help strength those. Overall, I would have to say that I feel more confident on the bike than before.

3) Pain is temporary… Pride is forever. This is a little painful. I will bring Advil with me on the rides from now on to take some of the pain out of my thumb, but I realize that this pain is temporary. I’ll have plenty of time to relax after Ironman, but putting up with this pain for the next 5-6 weeks could tell me more about myself than any other training section.

It’s just black and white. Give the training and the race it’s due and work hard to get there. Nothing worth doing is easy, and this has been made a little more difficult.

I’ll see what I can write tomorrow after my surgery. I don’t know yet what I’ll feel like typing, but if I have a report from the surgeon’s table I will publish it!

Friday, July 14, 2006

More news...

After a trip to the hand clinic today, I learned that I have a “Bennet’s Fracture” in my thumb. This basically means it is both dislocated and broken at the base… And it also means I will need to get surgery. I have to get the thumb “reset” and then have two pins put in to keep it in place. The doctor said that I could opt not to do this and just to let the fracture heal, but that may lead to a lot of future problems. So I’m biting the bullet and going for the surgery. I should get a call this weekend or early next week to schedule me in for a day surgery. Apparently it doesn’t take much, just a quick freeze of the arm and then they go in! But at my age and the fact that I live a fairly active lifestyle, it makes sense to go for the surgery and try as best as possible to avoid future problems.

The doctor says that, since I am training for Ironman, my swimming ability will probably be the most affected. It may or may not be possible. However, he was positive that the cast could be adapted to allow me to still train on the bike. I love it! When the doctor said “you should be able to bike still” I perked up and said “that’s all I needed to hear!”

Who knows what this will mean for my race goals? I have to focus on some very specific training over the next 4-5 weeks and come into Penticton in the best possible condition. I am lucky in that I have built up a good training base that I can continue for the most part.

So that’s the news! How did I react? I went and bought a new Giro bike helmet, as helmets should always be replaced after a crash, and started packing for my trip to Penticton this weekend. I’m going out to ride the Ironman course tomorrow with the Ironcops team (Edmonton and BC are in town) and with a BIG thumb cast on my left hand. I just hope someone can help me if I need a tire change!

“To travel hopefully is better than to arrive…” - Robert Louis Stevenson

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Injury thoughts...

We do everything we can sometimes to prevent injury, but the reality is that injuries are a part of sports… The triathlete is not immune from the potential for injury. I look at my broken thumb from yesterday and I am mulling over the meaning of what happened.

I realize that the reason my thumb broke was because of my overall aggressiveness on the corner of that turn. Now, I can argue forever that this was a calculated mistake, BUT, I also have to acknowledge that it was my aggressive riding that allowed me to keep the pace I was keeping, and that my effort was due to my desire to go for it, give my best performance, and know that I left it all on the course. In a literal sense, I very nearly did, but I really do feel good about the fact that it was my energy and my enthusiasm that led to the injury. My desire to compete came through, and I have to take that as a really good and solid lesson.

And it is reflected in a personal best performance and, in general, a continued burning desire to improve and compete again soon.

Of course I learned a little lesson too, and in future I’ll be much more conservative going around those corners. But it’s all part of the game, and if I didn’t want to risk the injury I’d best stay off the course…

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Pictures brilliantly taken by Rachel...

Before the race! Two nervous guys about to begin a long morning...

After the battle... Still friends!


Two proud finishers... Michael is King of the World (cue Celine Dion)...

"I hear the medical tent is a great place to meet girls!"

Shots at the finish line...

If you must know... I'm still looking to see where I am bleeding...

Looking through the garbage for safety pins... Forgot I might need those :). Thanks Rachel!
Michael and I heading out at 5:30am for transition... No psych-outs going on here.
Racer #69 (that's me) off on the bike!
Rachel and I after dinner on Saturday... Great Pasta!
Pre-race dinner at Campo Marina

The first pics...

Oscar and I at the finish line... Oscar did awesome and pulled out a 5:14:33... And that's after doing Ironman Coeur d'Alene.


Denise (from NSTC) and I. Still smiling as though we're completely unaware of the heat.



I have no idea what or who I am looking at. Let's just call this one the "poser shot"... Portrait of a 5:23 Half Ironmaner as a Young Man (with apologies to James Joyce).

Thanks to Oscar for these shots!

The bones of the hand... unplugged...

Anything broken?

Yep.

Turns out the little “thumb jam” I experienced at the race is a fracture. Technically it is the base of the metacarpal bone on my thumb. If it had been a couple of millimeters lower, it would be a break of the scaphoid bone, which would be really bad news. So, now I am going to get it cast…

In taking a look at what is up now, I obviously have to re-adjust some training. I will be largely out of swimming for the next 3 weeks probably (if I am lucky)… So, I’ll have to look at some dryland alternatives in that regard. Running won’t be a problem, which is GREAT. Biking is the grey area right now. I am not sure what capability I will have. My thoughts are that easy riding will be possible and, once the cast is on, I’ll see what that allows me to do.

I have to say, though, that I think I am very lucky that this was not something more serious. The scaphoid bone, had it broken, would take months to heal, require pins and the like, and basically means my mobility would never really be the same. In this way, I am really just dealing with a bone in a finger which, if taken care of, will heal. It’s not great, but the Doctor says I definitely am getting the best case scenario of all the things it could have been. I also could have had a much worse crash and wound up with more serious injuries… As it stands now, I am just not shooting basketballs for a few weeks (I am left handed when shooting a basketball).

That’s today’s report. I’m waiting to talk to the coach about what is next for me but now some “adjustments” need to be made.

Monday, July 10, 2006

The race report... A hot day in the Okanagan...

I arrived home late last night hoping to get started on my race report for the Osoyoos Half Ironman, but I was just so bagged I zonked out on the couch watching Tour de France highlights and munching down some great Okanagan cherries I picked up on the ride home…

So, that brings us to the morning and, after a good night’s sleep, I have the opportunity to look at the weekend behind me and, hopefully, relay some of the feelings and moments in a decent story.

The weekend really began Friday afternoon and evening, as I busily attempted to replace the older tires on the Cervelo with some brand new racing tires that Michael L, my racing buddy for the weekend, had picked up for me from Simon’s Bike shop in downtown Vancouver. Michael had just bought himself a pair and was raving about them to no end. Even though we had really no “rivalry” going on between us, it can’t be argued that there was a secret desire in both of us to challenge each other to be first to the finish. But it was a healthy battle since both of us (appeared at least) to be doing our best to help the other. So, thus enters the race wheels. While putting them on I also put in some lighter inner tubes from Schwalb. I figured if I was going for “light” on the bike, I had mind as well aim for a few extra grams with some lighter inner tubes. In the back of my head I was thinking, of course, that tires had been the main culprit in my DNF in Victoria, so I’d best not take too many chances with this stuff. However, both are new tires and new tubes, so I figure they’ll have at least a weekend shelf life. I tested out one CO2 cartridge by inflating one of the tires using it. Even though these things cost $6 each I figured it was worth wasting one out just to make sure I got it right.

As I was putting the wheels back on my bike I let the Cervelo slip out of my hands, and the big chain ring landed square on my bare pinky toe. It slit a 1 cm cut right into it and I also believed, at the time, that it may actually have crushed a little bone or something. So thus begins a racing weekend…. I bandaged it up as quickly as possible and took the bike out for a quick spin to see how the tires felt. Just having new tires felt amazing and, while I couldn’t really feel the difference in weight I felt a lot more secure and confident.

I got home to discover that the blood from my pinky toe cut had bloodied up the sock (left foot). So, I went to the washroom, washed off my feet, and applied a new bandage. At this point I was thinking I probably needed to at least get some stitches or something but, hey, it’s a pinky toe and I didn’t have time.

So, later in the evening, after a great meal with my parents (a fantastic salad with a couple of slices of pizza for good measure and “just good for the heart”) I went over to Michael’s and he and a few of his friends, his girlfriend Rachel, and I watched the DVD from Ironman Hawaii 2005. There is the inspiration! When you see a few folks overcome great adversity and push their limits to finish that race, you realize your issues are really quite manageable. Of course I thought that as I limped back to my car and drove home.

Saturday morning Michael and Rachel picked me up at 7am and we started our long drive to Osoyoos. It’s about a 4-4 ½ hour drive all told, and we stopped in Hope at the Home Restaurant for a big breakfast. The real mantra of the weekend was eat lots, stay hydrated, and use anything and everything to keep your body temperature cooler. We arrived in Osoyoos around 1pm and went to check into the hotel, and pick up our race packages. Rachel went for a run in the 35 degree heat in the afternoon as she is training for the Stormy Ultramarathon. I couldn’t imagine walking to the beach it was so hot outside, but there and off she went! Michael and I grabbed a pasta lunch at the Owl’s Pub and stayed in the shade. We checked our bikes in to the transition area and Michael played around with some duck tape and a rigged up aerodynamic storage system for his gels, spare tubes, etc. that he’d put about 9 months of thought into. After his performance on the bike, I’m hiring him as my official “bike engineer” for Ironman Canada.

After a short dip in a very warm lake and the race meeting, we went and grabbed dinner at Campo Marina – one of the best Italian restaurants I’ve ever eaten at – and had an early night. I actually think I fell asleep around 10pm after a couple of quick phone calls with friends wishing me luck. What a great family we have here!

I awoke a couple of times during the night to loud noises of partiers outside in the parking lot. Well, it’s summer, and it’s party time for a lot of teenagers, so I wasn’t too ticked off although I would have enjoyed a deeper sleep. Still, I had been sleeping fairly well all week so I knew this would only be a small inconvenience. I was well hydrated, had eaten plenty, and was in bed, so I couldn’t really be mad at all.

We awoke at 4:30am and I immediately ate a bowl of oatmeal. Michael awoke around 4:40 and had his breakfast, and Rachel was there for support the whole time. It was great to have her around the whole weekend as she was incredibly easy going and kept us both in check most of the time. She’d gotten a little heat exhaustion from her run the day before, too.

Our hotel, the Poplar’s Motel, was about a 10-15 minute walk to the transition area, which was perfect for us. When I went outside in the morning there was a rather drunk teenage guy stumbling around and completely incoherent. I have no idea what he had consumed and I just couldn’t be bothered to find out. But he was not in good shape.

We walked to transition and set up our bikes, and I chatted with a few of the competitors that were around whom I knew. There were a lot of folks from the Ironcops Edmonton team, as well as our BC team, around, as well as some folks from the North Shore Tri Club. It was a great scene all around. Beautiful weather and a lot of athletes. Michael was about to do his first Half Ironman race, as was another friend of mine, Christy, from North Vancouver. I think I had scared her the day before saying “you picked a heck of a hard race to do your first Half Ironman”. Ooops.

Michael and I went for a quick warm up swim in our wetsuits before the race started. The water was, indeed, quite warm. I opted not to bring my watch with me on the swim as I really didn’t want to look at it at all, and couldn’t without breaking my rhythm anyway. So, I had no idea what my pace might be or anything. We came back and the race started. It was a two-loop course and they send the men under-49 out first. All the women and over 50 men would go 10 minutes later. The start of the race was a frenzy, and I believe I started in the wrong spot as I was constantly being overtaken or overtaking other swimmers all the way out to that first buoy. We turned left and then things started to settle down. I decided to use my normal swim goggles this time instead of the Aqua Sphere Seal goggles I had always used before. I wasn’t happy with how they felt anymore from some previous swims, so I thought the normal swim goggles would be better. I had very little sighting problems the whole way and kept my bilateral breathing going as much as possible. I was in a zone turning into the last turn before the end of the first 1k loop. The swim back to shore was mired in seaweed which was quite an experience. You truly felt as though you were navigating through a forest as you got closer in. In a way, it forced me to keep my hands from dropping too low in the water, which meant I believe I had a cleaner stroke. We arrived at the end of the first loop and had to get out of the water, run around a post, and go back in and do the whole thing all over again. By this point the field had spread out quite a bit so there was no problem heading out to that first buoy as there was on the first lap. I got into my rhythm right away and focused on swimming with as good a form as I could and breathing steadily and consistently. And sighting so that I always was hitting the shortest route to the next buoy. I knew I was swimming well, and hoped that what I felt was reflected in my swim finish time. I finished the second lap and jumped out of the water. I noticed a few spectators along the way, Kelly, one of my friends from Vancouver, and Rachel, and I headed towards the wetsuit strippers. This is the fun part, where you lie down on the grass and have two volunteers pull your wetsuit off like lightning. It was awesome.

I had no idea what my finishing time on the swim was, as there was no clock set up to check at that point. No matter, I figured it was under 40 minutes… It had to be. When I checked later, I found out it was 36 minutes 14 seconds... That's 2 minutes faster than Victoria 3 weeks earlier. So, obviously the sighting is getting better!

I ran into the transition area and snuck a peak over to where Michael’s bike was. The bike was still there, meaning that I had finished the swim before he had. I got to my bike, strapped on my helmet, put on shoes (no socks), and my sunglasses and bike gloves and headed out to start the big climb. I saw Michael entering transition as I was getting my bike off the rack, so I knew he’d be a few seconds behind be and I also knew he’d pass me quickly on the bike. I got moving in an easy gear and started the long, 14km climb that started this bike leg. It’s a tough way to start but you definitely can’t push too hard either, which boded well for me. I just spun up the hill and tried, as my goal, to consume one full water bottle before the top of Richter’s Pass, where I knew there would be an aid station. Planning out your water intake by aid stations keeps you more consistent and forces you to drink water more often, I realized. Michael passed me about 8-10 minutes into the bike, which was pretty good I thought. I just stayed steady and tried to keep my heart rate low. It’s a long enough race, I figured. I got to the top of Richter’s Pass and finished off the last of my water, discarded the water bottle, and grabbed a new one from the volunteers. Then started the decent. And oh how fun that was. I got my bike up to 45 mph heading down the hill and, at one point, even was cracking in on 50 mph. Cruising! I had a few riders that I was cat and mousing along this descent but nothing to worry about too much. The first female passed me at the top of Richter’s and that was comforting too… It had taken that long for someone as a pro to catch me (even though I had a 10 minute head start). Then we entered the rollers, and I just focused on quicker cadence and keeping my heart rate around 150-155 as much as possible. And it was working. I was maintaining a good pace but not completely wasting myself. I would pass a person here and there and get passed by another person here and there. In the past, I was almost never passing people, so I know I have become a better cyclist. At the next aid station, around 40km into the race, I finished off my next water bottle and discarded it for a new one. I knew I was on pace to drink 2.25 litres of water on the bike. That I felt was pretty good. I also had the Thermalite salt tablets that I consumed at a rate of 1 every hour, a clif shot every 45 minutes, and one clif bar at the half way point. I also had my e-load water bottles in the back water cage and my goal was to finish 1 ½ of them. At the halfway mark I checked my bike time and I was sitting at 1:32. I had figured I’d be lucky to break 3:15 on this course, a hilly, tough course, and seeing I was that far ahead of my predicted pace had me excited, but also hoping I had not pushed out too hard.

Entering the second half of the race, there was a flat section of about 15km back to the rollers. I got into my aero position and peddled a higher gear, and had my speed at around 24-25 mph most of the way. I was surprised, again, at how comfortable this was feeling. We hit the rollers and I geared up and down appropriately, passed and was passed, and kept it steady. I started the dreaded climb up to the top of Richter’s Pass and realized that I had about 18km to go, and was only at the 2:20 mark of the bike portion. If I really gave it a little more I should be able to break 3 hours. I had a touch climb ahead which would slow me down for sure, but then a straight downhill for 11km into town. That I was looking forward to. So, I really made sure my cadence was strong and I climbed up that 4-5 km hill towards the top of Richters. I passed a couple of people along the way and then was passed by Michelle, one of the members of the North Shore Tri Club. She looked strong and just took off in front of me. I came around the final turn on the hill and looked at my watch. I was at 2:44 and was about to start a straight descent. With 11km to go, and a chance to go about 60km/hour, I knew I had a shot at a sub 3 hour. Again, I felt I’d be lucky with a 3:15. I got into the highest gear and just peddled into the downhill, a 6% grade, and got my speed going. I passed Michelle (I’m a heavier guy, so downhills work better!) and screamed down that last section. I was hitting 45-47mph the whole way. It was exhilarating. I came into town with a burst of speed, about 6 minutes to spare until the 3 hour mark, and knowing full well I had this in my grasp.

Then, I made a mistake.

At the 3rd to last turn ( a left turn) on a town block, I stayed aero, did not slow down, and took the turn way too sharp. I knew, the moment I got into the turn, that I was in trouble. There was no way to escape it, I was going to crash out, and big time. I can’t tell you the speed I took that turn at but it was somewhere in the neighborhood of 25-30 miles per hour. Cars have to slow down when making that kind of turn. I pulled up out of the turn and my wheel skidded into the gravel on the side of the road, turning sideways and sending me flying over the bike and onto the gravel. I landed awkwardly and I can’t really recall whether I flew off the bike or if I just landed on the side with my bike, but I slid a good few feet before the bike caught and flipped over (with me) onto the other side…. A moment of trepidation… I settled in, looked up, and realized “I am still awake.” Then I went to see if I could get up. I could. My left thumb hurt like crazy, but nothing was sticking out or bleeding uncontrollably, so I figured nothing was too out of sorts. I had a lot of road rashes… I look around right now and I have scrapes on my left and right legs from my knee to my hip, on my right elbow, my left forearm, and my back and shoulders. I not only kissed the road, I made unruly advances on her… Sorry, just a joke.

I got up and looked at my bike. It still looked like nothing was bent on it. The stem and handlebars were turned 180 degrees and facing the seat, but I was able to twist them back to their original position or, at least, within a few degrees of it.

Then I realized, “I’m okay…” In a split second, I hopped back on the bike and started pedaling again. I was bleeding a little but I just felt if I kept moving I’d be okay. I also looked back at my watch and realized I still had 4 minutes to reach the transition area to break three hours. I got my speed up. Michelle caught up to me and asked what had happened. I told her I crashed and she couldn’t believe I was still riding. I honestly felt like I had no choice. I had to keep going. I had said over and over that I would not let my race end with a bike problem. I had said that for 3 weeks. I had made a commitment to myself and a promise. As Rachel later pointed out, I had to keep going in my own mind. I had not given myself the option of quitting.

I arrived back at transition, a little worse for wear but still moving, still able to run, and still focused on the task at hand. I looked at my watch and I was at 2:59 for the bike. I had made a sub 3 hours – the results later will show a 3:04 but that includes time on both the swim-bike transition and the bike-run transition. The only trouble I had was using my hands to get my socks on. That was a trial, but once they were on I was ready to head out on the run. I grabbed some water, Gatorade and a sponge and took it all in as I started out to the half marathon portion.

This run was a two loop out and back, so it was very easy to see everybody along the way. I thought that was kind of cool, actually. I tried to keep my heart rate below 170 but it was not happening, so I settled on keeping it at 175. I said to myself “fine, if you can’t get it lower, learn to deal with it here and stick to it”. I did. I ran the whole run around that heart rate with a couple of short spikes that I quickly dispelled with some cool water and slowing down. I saw Michael at the first turn and realized he had a six minute advantage on me. Six minutes I can try to make up. I kept my cadence and form strong and just focused on being efficient and smooth with my running. It’s the one thing I know I can control with myself. I hit the first turnaround (about 4.5km) and started back, picking off people with every kilometer. I love being a comfortable runner as I generally do start catching people on the run portion of the race. I came back to the end of the first half of the run and Michael passed me on the other side again. This time I was about 4 minutes back. So, I had gained 2 minutes in about 6km or so. Pretty good pace I felt. My heart rate was climbing a little and the shade from the clouds was gone, so the heat was piling up. I made a point of taking a sponge at every aid station and squeezing it over myself, and that was about the best thing I could have done. I clocked my first 7km at 32 minutes and my second 7km at 33 ½ minutes. So, I was slowing down slightly, but I still felt I could go for a sub 1:40. I hit the last turnaround and Michael was still about 4 minutes ahead. I was matching him now in pace. As I hit the turnaround I saw Kelly and her mom there and they cheered me on. That gave me a huge boost – it also raised my heart rate quite a bit which I joked was because I had two women cheering for me. I picked up the pace until they disappeared in their car, and figured if I could hold this for another 4km I’d break the 1:40 barrier. I kept moving but my heart rate was climbing. I stopped at the aid station and started walking a bit, grabbing 2 water cups, a Gatorade, a coke and a sponge. Lots of stuff to hopefully get me moving again. It did, but I opted to keep the pace a little more manageable until the final 2km. I was bonking.

I ran past the finishing section for the final 2km and started my run up the hill. I finally realized that my heart rate was soring, and I needed a slight break. I walked through the last aid station and threw a sponge and some water on me, then decided to take a 100 meter walk up the hill before starting again. There I ran into Kerri, a girl from Penticton who is on our Ironcops team. She had planned to come out and watch the race – I met her in Oliver at the Half Ironman last month. She walked a little with me and was very encouraging. I have to say that’s what got me running again. She told me it was about a 3 minute run to the final turnaround and I was off. I went up the hill towards the turnaround, and saw Michael coming down the hill. He was still about 4 minutes ahead of me. I wished him well. He was running strong and looked solid. I hit the turnaround and started back on the 1km to the finish. I picked up the pace as I ran downhill and then made that final decision to push for the line. I ran as hard as I could muster, sprinting through the aid station as best I could, coming down the final stretch and turning towards the finish line. I had run a 1 hour 42 minute half marathon, which I was pleased with to no end! I hit the line at 5 hours 23 minutes and 9 seconds. A 32 minute personal best time on a HARD course. I was elated. I also realized that I HAD to have had a great swim if that was my finishing time. But not to worry now. Now I needed water, and to sit down for a bit. I also needed medical attention on one of my scrapes on my arm as it was a lot bigger than I thought at first. I wandered around in a bit of a daze and congratulated Michael and Oscar, who had also finished a few minutes ahead of me. They both had awesome races, as did I. I felt a little lightheaded as I started to talk to people, so I decided it was best to sit down and get the medical attention now. They came by and wrapped my arm in gauze, and took my blood pressure and pulse. My heart rate had dropped to 115 which I was happy with, and apparently my blood pressure was pretty good for someone who had just done this kind of race. Signs like that always tell me that I probably have more potential in me to push things a little harder…

I sat down and one of the medical folks looked at my left thumb. It didn’t hurt to the touch so it doesn’t appear to be broken, but it hurt a lot so they brought me some ice. I decided to stay on the chair for a while, and yelled at people I knew as they passed by after finishing. I saw Christy, Dave Marsh from the Ironcops, and one guy who I had passed on the bike on the downhill leading into town. But, I stayed put and, after getting care, got up and went for a jump in the lake. Ah, did that feel refreshing and a little stingy as my cuts and scrapes got cleaned out.

And that was where I stayed for the better part of an hour or so. Just chilling out and chatting with people about their race. It was amazing. It was, by far, the best race I have ever been a part of. It just felt great all around, from the organization to the feeling afterwards. Everybody being so friendly, and Joe Dixon, the race organizer, shaking everybody’s hand at the finish and thanking them for doing the race. That was an amazing touch! The link to the race site can be found at www.osoyooshalf.ca/deserthalf_home.html

At the awards banquet, a few of our North Shore Tri folks were awarded for placing in their age groups. Sarah, Joe’s wife, took pitty on my for my scrapes and snuck me a door prize of a new Sugoi biking jersey. It’s SWEET. We ate with Terry, who is also on the Ironcops team. Terry had just finished his first (of many, I hope) Half Ironman and had a question that I think a lot of us have… “What the &#^ have I gotten myself into?” It’s a funny thing because doing a Half Ironman really does make you question doubling that and doing a full Ironman. We all get that feeling of “wow, I can’t imagine”. I still got it a little. Could I have done that same thing for twice as long? That’s where it gets fun. It’s where we realize that our limits are only what we decide they are. The truth is, you can. You can swim 2k, that means you can swim 3.8k. You can bike for 3 hours, you can bike for 6 hours. Will it be easy? No. If it was, why train for more than a year for it? But it will be rewarding, it will be an experience, and we’ll all still learn something about ourselves if we are truly open to the conversation. And that’s a promise. When we are willing to let the experience show us something about ourselves and the world, then no experience is a bad one. I crashed hard on my bike (like Bobby Julich in the Tour de France – only no broken bones) and, in a moment of sheer commitment, made no question of the fact that I was going to get to the finish line. Some people experienced their first real open water swim race and found it exhilarating and were actually shocked at how comfortable they were. We are our own worst critics and yet we are capable of so much more than we or anybody will ever imagine. And THAT is what these races are meant to demonstrate. In addition, you truly see character revealed in the folks who are just so happy for others at the finish line, the spectators and supporters who are just as tired from cheering and honking horns, and marvel at an individual’s triumph over a challenge. It’s a beautiful world for one day, where everything is about what we CAN do, and not what we CAN’T.

After all was said and done, goodbyes given, bike rides arranged, etc. we went back, packed up our triathlon gear out of transition, loaded up the car, and started the drive home. But first we stopped for cherries… I know it’s never about getting home, it’s about stopping for fruit on the journey… And this journey had some great friends, a wonderful race, a few testy moments that could have changed everything, and some fine Okanagan cherries…

Friday, July 07, 2006

Desert Half...

I believe the strategy remains similar for the Desert Half as it was for Victoria, albeit with the addition of the hand pump!

Yesterday my buddy Michael picked up a set of race tires that I just finished installing on the Cervelo. I took it for a quick spin this morning and I think that the real thing I notice is that they are new. The tires that I got with the Cervelo were running a little on the worn side, so I have had that as a concern for the past few days. Tonight I plan to do a little more “preparation control”…

I’ve realized that all of this is about controlling what can be controlled and adapting to what comes your way. Focusing completely on the Point A to Point B mentality does not allow for this, as all success is built into arriving at Point B (the end of the race, or a specific race time, etc.). I plan to execute a smart race, pushing my limits when necessary and holding back when necessary, in order to have the best race I can put together on Sunday. That’s the big picture. The little picture is breaking things down into each moment and experience, and then not trying to plan out and control every possible moment. I can’t control who slaps me in the face on the swim or any of the myriad of biking and run issues that can come into play. I can only put the best “me” at the starting line and see what comes out of that.

So, with that all in mind, I’m going to blow one of my CO2 cartridges tonight just experimenting with the timing and everything, to make sure I don’t mishap during the race. I have already found a couple of places to store the hand pump on the new bike.

Nutritionally, I plan on consuming 2 Clif bars, one at the top of Richter’s Pass and the other at the turnaround. After that it’s a matter of gels and sports drinks and water, and my goal is to get down 1-2 sports drinks and 3-4 waters. This should be more than adequate for the run and hopefully won’t cause a stomach issue. I have salt tablets as well, and I will pop one of those every hour.

I figure at that point I shouldn’t need more than one gel on the run. I can survive on Gatorade and water otherwise. But I’ll take the one gel just to make sure I have that energy spike that I need.

Therein lies the nutrition plan based on how training has been going so far. One final note, I also PLAN on having a race report WITH a finishing time attached to it!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Just 52 more sleeps to go...

Boy does THAT sound a little ominous... As I took one of my last remaining massage appointments - okay, I have 2 more - with Andrea today it dawned on me... We're at the beginning of the final leg of this episode...
I have been forced to come to a few little realizations:

1) I have not done everything I could... Then again, I don't know if I will EVER think I have done enough. But, and this is my respite, I feel as though I have trained well enough to enter this last phase of training with a focus and ability to push the envelope, test out my limits, and truly be ready for Ironman. So, while I wish I could have trained consistently for 20 hours a week, I feel as though I will be in far better condition heading into August than I was in 2002. And that is, in itself, where my success already lies. It's a 3-5 year process to reach close to you potential, and I am in year 1.

2) De-cluttering life is the key to overall success in anything. The bottom line is that I have, in the past, overcommitted to a myriad of different obligations. And, in many ways, my desire to hang on to these commitments comes mostly out of my ego and belief I can "do it all"... The thing is, while I believe that MAY be SOMEWHAT true (and I would have to argue that it MOST CERTAINLY is NEVER true), who am I trying to make a believer out of? My peers? My parents? Myself? It is along the same lines of needing to own stuff. We live in a world where "stuff" is often a measure of one's value. So are achievements and busy accomplishments. Yet, in the end, what makes us happy? Fulfilled? It's not the "stuff", it's the journey involved... So, I'm in 3 volunteer organizations, holding 3 roles in 1 of them... What does that do for me? I get to go on some trips here and there, which is nice for weekends and such, but in reality I am often overstretched. Who does that serve? It's mostly ego and pride that prevent me from pearing down my obligations, as when I find I have consistent free time I rush to fill it. Ironman training is a really simple process, when it comes down to it. It really is more de-cluttering than anything, because you basically have to put a fire to the underbrush of your life in order to fit the training in. I simply have few evening time free, and aside from work, if it doesn't go with Ironman training, it just doesn't fit... Real simple. It has become easier to say "no" now, and that's almost like stopping the deficit spending for me... Now that I have stopped "adding" responsibility, it's time to start taking a few away. Don't get me wrong, I love volunteering and being community-oriented, and that continues to be a priority for me, but I need to prioritize and really commit myself to something instead of being half good at five (or more) different things.

3) Despite what I once thought, I have definitely become a better conditioned athlete. I've had five years of massages, run training, swim lessons, and bike mileage and, all combined, I am able to withstand a lot of physical activity. I'm tired by 10pm, but I'm definitely pushing harder and longer in my workouts than ever before. I'm better at 32 than I was at 28. And THAT alone makes it worth the whole process, because I still feel I have more in me to discover.

4) To re-emphasize point #2, things SHOULD be a little simpler. I believe in having challenges and striving towards them, but when something just simply is taking a lot of emotional energy to wrap around and seems to go nowhere, it's time to walk away and regroup. Life should not be difficult all the time.

5) To contradict point #2, a new bike every once and a while DOES make a difference in your attitude ;)!

6) People involved in sports are, in general, the greatest people to associate with. Most attitudes are positive as we come from a "can-do" philosophy rather than a "will never happen" camp. It's infectuous and I don't see any reason why we can't always aim to associate ourselves with positive and uplifting people, rather than those who are always focussed on what is negative and wrong in the world and in their life. Those who see possibility in adversity, learning in failure, and opportunity in loss, are the people who are the most inspiring. And, in the world of triathlon, they far outnumber the nay-sayers.

7) Sometimes simplifying life (#2) means getting a really short haircut. That's added 20 minutes of free time to my day...

8) Honesty and ethics are far more valuable than anything. Be true to yourself, your dreams and aspirations, and your friends and family. Everybody will understand, even if they sometimes don't agree with your decision. But you're better off doing what makes you come alive than what you feel you should do. The world needs more people who are alive.

"Everybody's got a hungry heart"... - The Boss (Bruce Springsteen)

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

The Desert Half Ironman

It seems as though there are quite a few pro's coming into town for this race... So, my thoughts of winning are out!

But it's received some top billing on xtri.com which is arguably one of the best websites for triathlon-related articles. You get a variety and nothing all that filtered, plus a lot of athlete's post their own race reports online.

The article is at http://www.xtri.com/headline-v.asp?nID=1425

So, I have been joking around that I'll be planting CO2 cartridges and tubes around the bike course to avoid the mishap that occurred at the Victoria Half Ironman... I guess that I can't escape that thought but, if anything, it's fueling me up to make sure I get to that darn finish line with more determination than ever. My ride on Saturday felt very good, as I rode out on the new Cervelo. The Cervelo One is a tri-specific bike which is a far cry from the road bike I am used to, and it took a good hour or so for me to completely settle in. But, after some minor tweaking on the seat angle and a little tightening of the bolts, I found the transition quite smooth. The bike has bar-end shifters which allow you to shift while sitting in a complete aero position. This is a bit unnerving at first but, LET ME TELL YOU, it makes it so much more pleasant as the ride continues on. You just keep going up and down gears depending on the terrain and the effort level is seamless. For once I actually felt like I could keep up without a massive amount of effort, and my heart rate backed me up as there were few points where I was above a base level HR zone, other than the occasional hill. The heat played another big factor on Saturday, but this time, with some added nutritional considerations and water, I ended the ride only slightly exhausted (after 6 hours it's tough not to be tired) and even started my brick with a low heart rate and a little spring in my step. My legs felt way more fresh. I don't know if it's the bike or the fact I had 7 bottles of water, 1 bottle of gatorade, 1 bottle of e-load, 2 salt pills, 2 clif bars, and a bag of gummy bears. Whichever it was, I'm planning on repeating it for Sunday's race.

Last night I trekked over to Sasamat to do a quick swim out to the canoes and back (about 1180 meters). I'm trying to work on my sighting and rhythm, so that I avoid adding any unnecessary distance to an already long swim. After my 2 hour run in the morning, I felt pretty tired and unmotivated to get the swim in, but I knew I was meeting up with some of the Ironcops team out there so it gave me some incentive to get up off the couch. I am definitely appreciative this time of the other warm bodies around me who are training, as it makes it a lot more difficult to back out of a planned workout. I already have a standing appointment to ride at 5:30am tomorrow (Wednesday) as I did last week. It's early, but it feels great to get the ride done before the day really begins.

Monday, July 03, 2006

There has been a lot going on lately, and I've been trying to find some time to sit down at this computer and write something. I started to think about what to write, and then I caught one of my first instances of writer's block that I have encountered since I first started this blog back in February. Those of you who know me know that I am not one for a loss of words often, unless stumped by the compliments of a charming lady...

So, here I am, sitting at the computer, and trying desperately to figure out something of substance to share out there.

Then, I think.. It's a friggin "blog", for crying out loud. You're writing about Ironman and what do you have to say about it or what you're experiencing? It doesn't matter if you have nothing insightful or meaningful, it's just a way of sharing the experience, right?

So, this is the experience... Last week I had a few too many Canada Day celebrations which I wouldn't give up for the world but which have left me with some much lamented sleep deprivation... Add to this what has probably been one of my most intense 2 weeks of training so far from a mileage standpoint - probably upwards of 18 hours last week of training alone and this doesn't count the long run I am doing this morning because I couldn't get it in yesterday. And, amazingly enough, I was on a mini-vacation during the early part of last week. Last night I got my first eight hour sleep in a week so that has definitely helped the old brain get some much needed life back into it.

Head shaves... Canada Day parties... This year was made extra special because Lenka, a good friend of mine, got her landed immigrant status confirmed on Wednesday. On an aside I think it's wonderful to celebrate Canada Day a little with someone who is fighting hard just to become Canadian! It really makes you proud of being in this great country of ours... Let's always fight to keep it that way and keep it green (my politics of the day)!

In a nutshell, those of us training for Ironman Canada are in high gear. July is meat and potatoes month for Ironman training, and this is where the big stages of preparation start to take shape. We're building, building and building throughout the month.

I have to say it is a pleasure to train this hard. I don't know if I have ever put in the mileage or the intensity that I am doing now, and over such a consistent period of time. I almost look forward to every workout, every session, because I know it's an opportunity to learn something, try something, or just to get a little stronger. I don't remember if I had this same feeling back in 2002 at all, but now it's just a pleasure to get up in the morning, knowing I have a good set of workouts planned for the day. I've been hitting the gym a little more, stretching longer, and eating much better than ever.

I think this has a lot to do with the fact that the race is over the horizon now. It's within earshot and not some 'off in the distance' event that I thought about doing a while from now. It's here, it's now. In the next few weeks I'll do mileage that will be more than Ironman Distance every week (easily).

This week should be slightly easier because I have the Desert Half Ironman on the weekend. Wait a second... Scratch THAT! I'm racing this weekend. It won't be easier, it will be more intense. Just shorter and more focused training, that's all... About the only thing that's "easier" is the fact that I don't plan on doing a long bike ride on Saturday, but the long Half Ironman on Sunday will make up for that without a doubt.

Here's another aside... I have to recommend you check out my buddy Vince's blog for his recent thoughts on his battle with "pre-cancerous skin lesions". Cancer has become my "cause of the year" (well for a couple of years now) and Vince is right there with me (as the man responsible for my new Lex Luthor hair cut)... His blog address is: http://www.vanishingtattoo.blogspot.com/

Okay, I'm out for the day...